scorned_shadow

I am promising myself to make this work even if my thoughts are true. I'm not going to doubt on the idea that he doesn't really love me and really wants to be back with her. He told me he cares about me and want's to be with me but I still find myself questioning him. I feel so god damn bad. Why can't I just let things be instead of picking at them until there is nothing good left of them? I haven't been this happy with anyone in a while and truely want this to work out but the way I'm going now I'm going to fuck it up. I miss him already. If only I didn't have to work today I would be able to spend the whole day with him. Even though I get off at 6 it would be pointless for him to come over because he would just have to leave at 10. I guess he still hasn't hooked his internet back up because he isn't online..So that means I won't even get to talk to him before going to work humpf. School is still going pretty bad. I guess I waited to long to start pulling my socks up. I've already failed one class and I'm pretty sure another fail is just around the corner considering exams are soon ahhh!

My bestfriend is most likely moving in with her boyfriend. He lives soo far away I will probably like never see her. The only thing that really bothers me is that she doesn't seem to care that as soon as she moves out there I'm basicly gone out of her life..After 6 years of being bestfriends I mean come on. I totally understand she is having serious troubles at home but I just wish she would act even just a little upset she has to move so far away. Her father is the one who came up with the solid idea though. I'm pretty sure as soon as chelsea realized she really needed to get out of that place she thought "Oh i could just move to Brads" So I can just imangine her face when her dad said he would pay Brad's parents to keep her. I'm also worried that she's going to leave without even saying goodbye to me, She is that type of person. She'll just pop up on msn and I'll start talking to her and she'll just be like "Oh yea i live at Brad's now" Gosh that's gonna hurt. I've been left by her for him so many times so what's one more?

Yay I have to start getting ready for work in 10 mins! I'm really curious as to how this week at school will go. Last week was messed up because over the break me and my boyfriend were so close then as soon as school opened up he acted like we didn't even go out, except on Friday. He actually spent the lunch hour with me so that was cool. I seriously hope he starts to want to hang out with me there too because it's hard going to the same school as my boyfriend but not seeing him all day. And he it's hard to chill afterschool because of homework and such,weekends don't work either because of my job *sigh* I hate missing people so much! Thing's are starting to look up. Though they always do there random drop down again so I will just have to wait and see how it goes.